Day 10: Most embarrassing moment

So before I spill on my most embarrassing moment, I have to clarify that most of my life things that have happened to me that might be classified as embarrassing (and there have been few), were really more humiliating or traumatizing (which seems weird to me because I actually embarrass easily, but it’s really in my own head- one of my biggest causes of self-esteem issues is worrying about what other people are thinking about me). I messed up on a solo in concert band once –the only solo I ever had- but the audience never knew because it wasn’t an obvious mistake. And it wasn’t one of those things that anyone ever brought up after that, like “pulling a Monica” or something like that. And there wasn’t anyone around (thank heaven) when one of the most popular guys in Jr. High made fun of my “high water” pants (good Lord, I hated Jr. High).

Due to my ability to deflect embarrassing moments, I really had to think about this one. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve tripped or fallen and laughed the hardest of anyone who witnessed it. That kind of thing just doesn’t embarrass me.

My most embarrassing moment happened just a few weeks ago at work:

Half of the office is sitting down in lunch room, eating. I’m sitting right next to my boss, who is very open with all of his employees. He had just recently told me he’d joined Match and saw me on there. And right there, while I’m eating my sandwich, he asks if I’ve been on any dates. If you’ve already read my post on being uncomfortable, you know that I heat up and turn beet red when I’m embarrassed, and that’s exactly what I did (as Bree would say, queue the sweaty armpits). It was really the combination of my own reaction and the fact that most of the table was watching at that point, that made the whole thing so embarrassing. One of my coworkers said she was embarrassed for me. I suppose I feel out of practice with the whole dating thing and I didn’t know how to respond to the question.

And my response could have just been a simple no; I’m not getting any dates, but that’s not why I went on Match. I’m trying to find my husband, wherever he is, but that’s beside the point.